Story for performance #712
webcast from Madrid at 09:39PM, 02 Jun 07

Blog posted on myspace.com/newslayer May 2, 2007

this is for me 2 say my piece…cos mayb someone will hear this…

newslayer May 8

Cos there’s so many bullshit people on this dumb website i thought for sure i should say something 2 show that not everyone is a braindead airhead stuck up rich shit like all u who make my life crap…

i’m not stupid…u look at me and think, what’s he doing here…what right has he got 2 b here…i know ur not looking directly but i can feel ur disgust crawling over my face, betle feet scratching me…got 2 get u off me everyday…

newslayer May 12

i wanted 2 see what all the hype was about…200 million people can’t b wrong, right?

all i see, u people talking urselves up 4 no good reason, like u have something 2 say, like wot u say is soooo important, that just anybody would go and read and b interested in what u do…like it is ur right and well, why don’t u just sign this here movie contract, this here book deal…like ur the only people in the world who watch movies and listen 2 U2…and all u just think that ur just so hot that everyone should look at u…U have this crazy fucked up idea that ur so goddamn special…who cares wot u think and what u like and who gives a shit about wot u don’t like or which stupid fucking TV shows u watch…don’t u know u sound just like everyone else…

but when it comes 2 making the big decisions, taking the big strides, yeah, we see the true resolve u got then, don’t we…i see it…or should i say, don’t see anything ha ha…i see something else…slime, grey and wet…hard not 2 throw up these days just walking down the street when I see people like that…like U…

newslayer May 18

got 2 friends on this page…one’s a viagra company…the other’s a girl who hopes of bing an internet porn starlet…

wot does that tell u, all u people…how many friends u got…like it really matters…no-one has one-hundred-and-ten-thousand friends…they are not real friends…

newslayer May 21

why don’t i say anything?…I’m not gonna buy into ur hyper bullshit existence…

newslayer May 28

U make me sick…Ur all clowns, wearing stupid rubbr masks…making out like the stink coming off u is bcause there just happens 2 b a rubbish dump close by…u stink, fukin rotting empty carcasses, walking cadavers, i’d b doing u a favour…

newslayer May 29

how do u think it feels 2 have ur nose broken or ur head smashed in…how about ur throat slit from ear 2 ear…each time u look at me with hate I will hate u back there is nothing else I can do…u do this every day as part of ur routine and think it is okay…u know exactly wot ur doing…i know exactly…it’s not enuff 2 have everything that u still have 2 make other people feel like shit…

newslayer May 30

everyone talks but no-one listens…

i hear wot they…that is u…wot u don’t want 2 hear…everyone looks but no-one sees…that’s a klee-shay only bcause it’s also true.

i listen…i see…

i know God can see me…i know he can hear me and if he can’t well he will soon enough…everyone’s gonna hear what i have 2 say…i’ve got a message simple and clear…

newslayer May 31

U people won’t even look at me…ur scared of me and I’ve never done anything 2 u…ur gonna b scared of me soon…

they’ll think i was angry at something, and i am…but more than that…i am angry that the world is like this…but people make the world the way it is don’t they…

newslayer June 1

new month…still the same fake faces, fake fake fake…

gonna show u…my own piece of history tucked away in the corner of everyone’s little head…a black seed pounding away in ur tiny skulls…just for me…

i’ll own it…i’ll own that small piece in peoples’ minds…u watch me…i’ll b this kind of infection that no medicine fixes…yeah, that’s what i’ll b…ha…ha…lol…i’ll just keep coming back year after year…no-one’s gonna forget about me…i’m gonna b there every time u talk about shit like that…they’ll say he was the b all and end all of that shit, no-one can outdo what he did…

newslayer June 2

this is the last time I’m writing on this cos by doing this dumb blog or wotever it is I’m just bing like u and I’m not…

i’m just bing practical…u will all end up like me…

I am history coming…this is a statement…i’m gonna make a statement everyone’s gonna read it…everyone’s gonna see it and everyone’s gonna hear it…everyone’s gonna remember it…

Adapted for performance by Barbara Campbell from a story by Ross Murray.