I was talking to Thompson the other day. You might recall him: white, middle-aged, going to fat. Worried, with sweaty palms. Works in the lower realms of the money trade. I dont mean to make him sound awfulits just a physical description, nothing more. I mean, its all truehis hands sweat, and he has the sort of skin that never took a tan; even in his youth he turned red after an hour on the beach. But hes a lovely man, or can be. Hes also capable of a really sharp turn of phrase, and over time he has become cynical, in his gentle way. Going to fat is a bit cruel I supposehes simply expanding around the waist, growing slack from all those hours behind a desk. About the only exercise Thompson gets these days is running numbers on his computer. He can be quite eloquent about the slow decline of the middle-aged corporate hack. I tell him he eats too much cake for a man of 50 who doesnt exercise. He agrees, and scrapes the cream to one side. He calls that watching his diet.
Ive known Thompson a long time. We met at university, which is when our lives really seemed to get going: finally, we were away from home, out of the nest, inventing ourselves, eager to learn. Just eager, generally. We werent just taking courses in 17th Century English Poetry (which is where I first met Thompson) or Approaches to the Novel. We were taking drugs, taking time, taking off. He was rail-thin then, and wiry in a kind of rock and roll lizard kind of way, and I know more than one of the gang we hung out with at the time lusted after him. Men and women. Thompson himself was undecided at the time, and flirted outrageously with whomever. He wore nail polish sometimes, and kohl around his eyes. T Rex and Bowie and Lou Reed were big influences.
God knows how Thompson got into the financial services sector. He never had any money back thenand he has precious little now it seems. But he has charm, and always has. Not sleazy charmcharm the pants off you charm, but a real kind of open boyish kind of loveliness, which seems to have endured, despite his years of office work, despite the unrealised promises.
AnywayI digress. Since his divorce hes been living in a one bedroom apartment down by the waterrevisiting his bachelor days, before he and Susan got married, moved to a semi in the inner west and had kids. The divorce was cruel, although I dont blame Susan: Thompson just drifted. One day, he seemed to have drifted far off shore, tethered to Susan and the children and the house and the garden and all that stuff by nothing more than habit. He simply wasnt anchored anymore. Maybe he never was. He wasnt restless exactly: he didnt want to change jobs, he didnt want to screw other women; he didnt want to travel. I think that was his problem. He had become content with a quiet life fuelled by good food, a bit too much to drink, late night TV and stacks of fantasy novels, which he reads voraciously. He can still quote John Donne and when you ask him about his job, hell deliver a wicked piss-take on corporate life. Hes savage about the mating habits of ambitious thirtysomethings, hilarious on the abuses of language. He still refuses to talk about how a change in circumstances will impact investors. Thompson insists a change in interest rates will affect mortgage payments for the average household. He obviously doesnt believe in the purity of the market. I know for a fact he loathes political conservatives as a matter of course. All of which is one reason why hes fifty and still sitting in an open plan office with a dozen men and women 15 years his junior.
Whatever ambition Thompson may have harbouredand whatever hope he had of actually realising that ambitionwas finally shattered last week. He told me the story, over coffee and cake. He asked for cream on the side, and ate it, and I suspected he was actually depressed. On the phone hed said he had news for me, but I hadnt realised quite how momentous it was. Theyd sacked him. After 15 years of unambitious diligence, he was given a months notice.
Why? I asked.
It seemed hed taken his observations on the mendacity of corporate culture too far: hed leaked a confidential management paper (all his own work of course) outlining a radical new approach to Performance Management. He cadged the language from a guide to imbecility devised by the American Eugenics Society in 1922: workers were placed on a finely gradated scale according to ability from Moron to Idiot. He chose his words well. The document was laid out as a discussion paper. He forged the signature of the head of the companys Human Resources Manager. He showed me. It was goodvery good. Junior staffparticularly the support staffloved it. Fast-tracked middle managers had a chuckle. They expressed the opinion that it was good but suggested he had too much time on his hands. Senior management simply saw it as disloyalty and contempt. He actually had an audience with two of the senior partners. Why did you do it? they asked. It was meant to be humourous, Thompson told them. He said he was quite calm at the time. He thought hed simply be chastised and sent back to his workstation, chastened. Instead, an hour later he had a letter of termination from H.R.
I had to go back to my office. Thompson wasnt in a rush to return to his. When I said I had to go, he ordered another coffee and a second serve of cake.
He finishes next Friday. Were having a drink after work.