Its unnatural, said Steve in hushed tones.
Its just a phase, said his wife Diane.
We should take him to see somebody.
Diane rolled her eyeballs.
Hes not the one with the problem; its you with your macho pride.
Brian knew the bickering was his fault, but he couldnt help it. He was playing on the living room floor with his Tonka truck. At the wheel was a floppy-limbed cloth doll with red woolen hair and three orange freckles painted on each cheek. Her eyes were large and round, almost Manga-like. Her mouth was a line of crosses stitched in red. Brian had claimed the doll that morning at a jumble sale, and christened her Wee Annie.
Diane looked over to their son and gave him a strained smile. Steve clenched his jaw. Brian had taken that damned doll out of the truck now and was rocking it, whispering lispily into its cloth ears. Worse still, he was cradling Wee Annie tight against the nylon nightdress hed taken to wearing. The nightie had belonged to his sister Helena, only she had never worn it. Too frilly! shed explained.
They all still ached for Helena. Ten months ago, she had undergone heart surgery. The surgery had been successful, but then the doctors had misjudged the level of medication she would need to keep fluid from building up in her lungs. I dont feel well, Mummy she had whispered, before climbing into bed with her parents. Lying between them, she drowned peacefully in her sleep.
After the funeral, Helenas room had been painted white and refurnished. It was called the guest room now, although no one had ever stayed there. Diane still hadnt been able to pack away her daughters clothes. Last Saturday, when Brian was supposed to be getting ready for bed, shed found him in there, trying on the frilly nightie.
Steve had taken Brian out earlier that day. Diane sometimes needed time off to crumble. Steve took Brian to a new tourist attraction in Edinburgh, described in the brochures as Scotlands Pompii. Under the City Chambers on the Royal Mile, a lane called Mary Kings Close had been sealed off back in the seventeenth century, to keep its plague-ridden inhabitants quarantined. Recently, re-opened to the public, it was drawing visitors in droves.
Hand-in hand, Steve and Brian tagged along with a group of tourists. They were half-way through the tour, standing in a room with waxworks of plague victims throwing up into a bed pan, the artificial odour of vomit being pumped into the air, to bring the scene to life. A middle-aged American named Hal was bombarding the tour guide with questions. Likes to hear the sound of his own voice, muttered Steve. Brian slipped his hand from his fathers and wandered off.
A few doors down the lane, Brian found a small room filled with dolls. There were Highland dancers, like you could get at the Castle gift shop, new dolls of all different skin tones and old dolls, grubby and worn out from being loved. The low lighting reflected in the eyes of those rows of dolls made them appear to be staring at Brian. He didnt like it. He was on the point of leaving, when a roll of blue paper tucked into the bonnet of a Highland dancer doll caught his eye. A fiver! he called out as he grabbed for the money. Just then, the light bulb popped.
In the dark, he felt a coldness creeping along his arms and legs, right down to his fingertips and toes. He felt sadjust like in the days after Helena had gone; when the house became still and quiet.
Thats mine! a girls voice said.
Brian clutched the £5 note tighter and looked around. He felt a pawing. Streaks of white light were darting aggressively around his arm.
Finders keepers he shouted out in panic.
The money is mine, said the voice, reverberating stronger now between the stone walls. Brian dropped the banknote. The darts of light subsided, then re-emerged as a large, looming mass before him. Brian could make out the features of a sad little girl, older than he was perhaps six like Helena had been.
Are you dead? asked Brian.
Yes.
Sos my sister.
I know.
Do you know her?
Yes. She said you have to let me go home with you.
But I dont like you.
Thats not nice, retorted the ghost. Helena says so too. Shes angry with you now.
Brians eyes started smarting and his lip quivered. The little girl drew closer, and wrapped her arms around him.
Youre too cold, whimpered Brian.
If you let me come home with you, Ill warm up.
Who are you?
My name is Annie. My Mummy and Daddy left me here, all alone. I got sick and I lost my dolly. I told one of the visitors once and she told the others. Thats why they keep leaving dolls here. They dont want me to be lonely. Do you get lonely sometimes?
I miss my sister.
You cant have Helena back, you know.
I know. Shes in heaven now. Why arent you in heaven?
I was being pulled that way, but I clung on. I was waiting for Mummy and Daddy to come back. I dont think theyre coming back. Can I please come with you?
I dont
Ill be your new sister. You wont feel lonely.
Brian thought for a moment. He thought of Helena, playing with Helena, the fun of laughing and even fighting together.
On uttering a quiet yes, Brian felt his body become rigid. Annie walked into him, smiling. The light disappeared; her voice no longer filled the room. Then she spoke to him again, because he was afraid of the dark. He realized her voice was inside him, and that he could answer silently. They talked until his father found him. He no longer felt alone.
Whats a vessel? Brian asked, as they re-surfaced from Mary Kings Close.